By Sister Monique Bell

I have a confession to make. There are times when my flesh covets a marriage to someone, anyone. I miss having someone to come home to and fix dinner for. I miss spoiling a man. Yes, I actually like spoiling my significant other aka “my man”. I am one of those rare women who believe taking care of my man is important, it’s what I want to do. Even in these moments where the rallying cry of women to be strong and powerful can be heard from rooftop to rooftop, the truth is I really like the idea of being a female who caters to her man. I want to be soft and feminine. I do not want to always be the “strong black woman”. I want to be the helpless little girl wanting her “Daddy” to pick her up and make everything okay. I really want what only God can give to me. God is the all that I want.

David felt the same way. He desperately sought God. He declared in Psalm 42:1-2

As the hart panteth after the water brooks, so panteth my soul after thee, O God. My soul thirsteth for God, for the living God: when shall I come and appear before God?

David continues by declaring, “yes, I am depressed, lonely, struggling with knowing God’s plan for his pain”. All the while knowing that God is the answer. No matter what we go through God is always the answer.

So today I declare that God is enough. His love for a wretch like me is enough. His faithfulness compared to my faithlessness is enough. His dying for me is enough. His watching over me is enough. I choose to stop bargaining with God and accept that He is enough. I choose to stop allowing the enemy of my soul to tell me I need something more. I choose to have enough of Him for the rest of my life whether or not He chooses to allow someone into my life.

Thank God Jesus is enough. Thank God the Holy Spirit is Enough. Thank God the Father is enough.